I’m lucky to be a twin though I’m not used to being alone; since utero I’ve had a compnaion. Perhaps that’s why I felt empty yesterday after Ben left for China, or perhaps it’s because we bring out the best in each other.
I cherish these two weeks as an opportunity to grow and know myself. I’m positive it will strengthen our relationship too.
May I be present as each moment of my life unfolds. Time flies!
I understand that people must separate (far beyond two week spans) and that people die. I do not like to be apart from the ones I love especially when I am left behind but this is being human.
I booked a Bee Well Massage
for Ben the eve prior to his departure and one for myself the night after. Melissa Brodeur
, of Bee Well Massage.
Bee Well massage helped me connect to my higher self, to my sissy, and Ben. There were a couple moments during the massage when I noticed my mind drifting, not connected to the part of my body being attended to. In these particular moments I noticed my muscles tighten or my irritability rise toward the dogs playing under themassage table.
Then I remembered yogic breath and instantly found calm. About my emotions and about my environment, I suddenly realized: at all times peace must come from within. In many ways the circumstances of my life are not controllable but my reaction is. This is the joy of being human. Choice! Consciousness! Freedom!
When I slow down enough to experience the present moment and mindfully choose how to proceed, what to say, what to do, then I experience my human potential to choose rightly, based on my truth, based on what my heart says. My inner voice has always been my best guide.
I had visions of Ben and his time in Shenzhen. I sensed his enjoyment at various times and that he is growing.
I saw my sissy smile, and many of my friends.
For someone like me, so attuned to connection-distance is a great exploration. What is two weeks days when there are lifetimes?
May you be happy.
May you be healthy.
May you live in harmony and peace.
May you have ease and well being.
May you be free!